momma's guilt

I cant believe that Adler is already to turn ONE tomorrow. the year has flown by. Due to it being in the middle of a week and us just throwing a party for my birthday, then for Halloween, i guess i dropped the ball and wont be throwing a 1st birthday party for Adler. I will have to get my ducks lined up for next year i wont be able to get away with this for long. We will have cupcakes and presents and maybe balloons but it wont be a "party" per say. I do truly feel bad about it but in the grand scheme of life she hopefully wont look back and say "...if only i had a 1st birthday party." :)